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I Love You

April 5, 2007

For M, originally posted in Multiply, March 23, 2007…

I love you. I've finally fallen in love after a very long time and it had to be you. I was ready to love somebody else, but I ended up loving you. I wasn't prepared for that, and I'm shaken.

I love you. I know I'm not supposed to, but I do. Its wrong, but its the only thing that makes sense to me now.

I love you. You have baggage. So do I. I don't know if it would work out, but I would try if you would too, and you would let me. What I do know is I would love you better than she ever did.

I love you. I would make the choice to give up what I have now so we can be together if you would only give me something, any indication at all, that you will be here for me when I do. I heard what you said. But did you mean it? Or were you just afraid that I'll be angry and vindictive enough to get you in trouble, so you give me some half-hearted promise to keep me quiet? If so, you wasted your time because I would keep my word to you no matter what.

I love you. I don't doubt that you're worthy. But my friends are right. If you really wanted to be with me, then you would've taken the risk, just enough for me to take mine. And because you can't (or you won't), then I won't take it. If I do, I'll be jumping out of my confort zone, and right now I need my friends. They obviously care about me more than you do.

I love you. I hope you will be back. I hope to see you again. But I don't expect it. You're gone and I grieve for you, but I know that in time, this too shall pass.

I love you. But I love myself more. And whatever decisions I do make, know that I'm not doing it for you or anybody else. I'm doing it for me.

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